Tuesday, June 28, 2005
1st day of sch reopening... SARKZ.
got my rugby jersey today... No. 18 LOL. 18 brings back memories of sec sch... ok but nvm. here's wad happened today.the day before. got a call frm Hohoho!(horlicks ad tune) regarding gpp draft 2. so i rushed out a copy till like almost 12am. i guess my grp members dun even give a damn. so y am i putting in so much effort. pw sux. it's leeching all my time for studies. today: passed the diskette where i saved gpp draft 2 into to some grp member, Y( we shall name them X,Y,Z). as usual, Z was saying 'eh, the gpp how? we just hand in one piece for the sake of it, la' n as usual, Y was too lazy, so the diskette was passed on to X. i shall not name any names lest i get into some stupid misunderstanding. but anyway. i gave the diskette at like 1st break, about 10am? yeah. n den when it was about 5pm, i got another sms frm Hohoho asking for my gpp draft 2. wtf it hadnt been handed in. so i called X to enquire.me: eh X, have u handed in the gpp?X: going to already (sounds like cant be bothered an inch abt gpp. well of course, try getting disturbing calls frm Hohoho n U'LL NOE.)me: wtf, can u PLS go n hand it in now, i getting kajiao'd by Ho again.X: okokokokok, i going now going now. (puts down fone) but wtf. it's the easiest u can do already. try rushing out a gpp draft n u'll noe wad it feels like to be pressured. den U'LL NOE. *swearing n cursing* ok, so later X calls me n says that Hohoho isnt in the staff rm. wtf of course he isnt in the staff rm. he's a COMPUTING tutor. so where wld he be? computer rm DUH. so i tell X to try the computer rm n X flares at me. X: 'i'll just leave it in the pigeon hole la, ok?'me: '*cursing n swearing* where u? gimme the diskette, lah. i get it printed.'X: outside fish tank (aircon study area)so i go n look for X. n get the G-D diskette frm X. so after tt i proceed to Hohoho's lair of child porn. gd thing someone was talking to him abt TKD, so he didnt really have time to scold me. so i just print the screwy thing n staple together den hand it in. n the worst part was that i even had to F*CKING apologize for handing the damn thing in so late. WTF. guess i have to go n talk to Hohoho about this matter.n cos i was doing gpp all the time, i didnt have any time to do my gp essay on something abt women's rights. sigh. guess i'l just have to do it during break or sth.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
1:03 PM
Sunday, June 26, 2005
HEADACHE.
agh crap. been having a headache since i woke up this morning. anyway. thankfully nothing uneventful's happened today.
was watching Windstruck on cable just a while ago. storyline was kinda weird. =/ but... but... Jeon Ji Hyun is really PRETTY! :)...
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
2:43 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2005
JESUS CHRIST!
i'm sorry if you christian/catholic people reading this think i'm blaspheming, but JESUS CHRIST! i really dunno wad the hell is wrong with my G-D family. nobody believes a word i say. n everybody has a problem with wadever i do. come on, can you BLOODY HELL lead your own lives, i dont need you to lead mine for me. =/ at this point of time, i shan't say i'm dulan/angry with any of them. as i always say, being dulan isnt gd for health. just think wadever u guys wanna think of. i cant be bothered with anything already.Slipping back into the deepest pits of agony...
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
10:56 AM
Thursday, June 23, 2005
sigh....
spent an unproductive afternoon at kallang mac. what the heck is wrong with my family. =/ i go there to study, but my pesky sister asks me to buy a large coke n cheese fries for her. wtf! i refuse n she says 'i'll treat it as my bday present'. i WALKED to kallang. that's 2 bus stops. she expects me to carry all that for her n walk home? fat hope. i still refuse n what does she do? make use of my father. 'papa doesnt believe u're at kallang so just buy me those stuff as evidence.' what the heck! i'm not her errand boy. n if she wants her fries so much, she can go buy them herself. n what the hell, i was REALLY at kallang mac studying. ok, maybe 3/4 the time crapping n the other 1/4 trying to solve some maths questions. there's nothing i can do if you dont believe me. too bad. i'm damn fed up already. u can choose not to beileve, but it's good enough for me if i know it myself. nothing probably will make my day today. my family SPOILT it all, thanks alot. =/P.S. Princess Yuan was kind enuff to bring up this point. notice this issue is not abt the cheese fries n coke, but abt trust. which unfortunately does not exist between me n my parents.Edited at 1932 hours.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
9:27 PM
cat issue.
some cat screeching outside sounds like a banshee. it's scaring the shit outta me. it sounds otherworldly.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
2:47 PM
bastardy day... almost.
whew, i almost concluded today was a bastardy day until i read princess yuan's blog. started out a boring afternoon(cos i slept at 4am, only woke up in the afternoon =x), as usual sitting in front of the com chatting to my frens, playing dota etc. den dinner came. today's dinner was really screwed up. nobody talking, i was talking to the air, asking questions but ended up in silence. WTH! nvm...
den later came dota session. as usual bone fletcher, kena suan tt my bone sux, nobody wanna go same lane as me. later bo pian 2 heroes in my lane, dez come n help. gotta thank dez for giving me a few kills. =/ playing halfway when someone quit, thus effectively ending my dota session for tonight. just when i was gonna get my second hammer.
as quoted by princess yuan : '... lester made it better by sending me all the songs i wanted after he painstakingly dled it for me last night.' <---- pulled me back from the void of anger. having an argument with yuan now abt her dao pic. haha. gone.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
2:44 PM
Monday, June 20, 2005
i'm back, i'm back!
ehh. here's a super loooong post.day 1:went to airport to find tt my passport was only valid for another 2 mths! the f*cking immigration counter staff was like damn rude.female officer: 2 mths only ah?!me: err.... yah. (wad else do u wan me to say?)female officer (in a commanding way): no, no, cannot. go to counter 12.at counter 12....male officer: ok, i get a paper for u to sign. (turns away n talks to his colleague, ignoring me for the next 5 minutes)me after 5 mins: um, can i have that document which requires signature please?male officer: wait, lah i'm looking for it. (after more rummaging, finds it.)male officer: 2 mths got 90% chance they will send u back here. we won't stop u from going, but u have to sign this. (shoves a pen in my hand, n i sign the book)male officer: heh, good luck. (smirks)ZOMG, no one smirks at me. go n die. u fucking guy(kerpal slang). and btw, i didnt have any problems with the immigrations in shanghai. flight was good, SIA stewardesses were really friendly. SIA rocks! :D n did i mention pretty too? :Pgot to shanghai at 10+, had a chaffeur frm the hotel pick us up n send us to the hotel. EXECUTIVE SUITE YAY.day 2:
parents' friends get to shanghai, go for lunch together. nothing much.day 3:took china eastern to some ulu 'monk'-ey place. ate veg meal. YUCK. the tofu sux. so stinky. pool room UNDER RENOVATION. ARGH. no other recreational facilities. had an early nite. went foot massage before tt :Dday 4:dunno wtf i was doing awake at 3am in a temple. pray until 6am, den went for much-needed breakfast. took another plane back to shanghai, reached shanghai in the afternoon. ate lunch with a family fren who's living in shanghai, den went back to hotel to slp. went nanjing rd after tt, n someone suggested foot massage, so off we went for foot massage :Dday 5:more pigging. eat n slp. den went to walk at some marketplace selling fake stuff. didnt walk, too lazy. sat outside the marketplace n waited for eveyone to walk finish, den go some pearl tower thingy n have a birds eye view of shanghai. den dinner. after dinner, uncle wanted to go for foot massage, so i went again :Dday 6:slept till 8am :) after bath, breakfast et, it was alr 10am. free time, so everyone went nanjing rd again, i went back hotel rm n watch tv. commercials r dumb in shanghai. they repeat it like 5 times, n each lasts at least like3 mins. so dumb man. anyway, went to eat at some dumpling shop opp the hotel, peepos ordered too much, n we couldnt finish. took a maglev train to airport, took the 4.30 flight back. :D
ooh yes, almost forgot... the flight back was shitty. service frm the attendants on the flite was really gd, nothing to say abt SIA service. :D n did i mention most of their stewardesses r pretty? =x but it was the other ppl on the flite. in front of me was some cheena guy keep snorting n sniffling, like got mucus n wanna clear like tt. so disgusting. den some blardie fu*king kid sitting behind me kept kicking the foot rest, vibrating my seat till i couldnt even sleep. i turned behind, scold the kid den the parents diao... wtf. stupid parents too. dunno how to take their fu*king dumb kid in hand. fat shits. dun let me see u again.
got home n immediately turned on the com man. 6 days without a com can kill! no dota today, chiong tmr :D
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
3:26 PM
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
HAPPY DAY!
oh damn, i missed time limit by 10 mins, by right, i missed 1 post. but oh well, who cares? :D here i am, blogging as usual. spent a totally unproductive day at home playing computer games n chatting to frens. had a really bad throat ytd, CMI. but it's much better now :D was waiting the whole day for peter to get home so we could start to dota. LOL can you believe it? 6-0 :D came a few close shaves but i never died. FIRST TIME LOL. i'm really starting to like bone fletcher :D
p.s. yuan, if u're reading this. I SOUND HAPPY!! :))
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
3:11 PM
Monday, June 13, 2005
Happy Day? part II
i was like zomg, sentosa outing? -.- but anyways, it turned out okays. except tt less than half the class turned up. =x heard some really lame excuse like 'i'm broke, can't go.' how lame can tt get? n gd on those who didnt pang :D
was playing in the water for most of the outing, every guy had their clothes off except peter =/ ah gua. LOL. scared show his fats. later they played vball, didnt join cos i didnt noe how to play -.-
went kayaking after tt! Hua Lei is damn heavy =/ LOL. i was doing ALOT of paddling. n peter arh.. u nvr use tt opportunity again -.- it was a god-given opportuinty [ well, sorta. we helped =)] n u wasted it just like tt.. ass.
came home n slept till 10+, when i suddenly rmb my promise.. so here i am, blogging. jut in time for today. bleah. dota'd before that, had a really good game, flamed some nubZ with bone fletcher... i actually flamed someone.. LOL. bf rocks :D i shall start training bf.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
2:59 AM
Sunday, June 12, 2005
BE HAPPY.
hahas. erms was talkin to yuan n she said life got alot of things to be happy abt. so frm now on i shall sound happy. =x spent the whole day rotting in front of the computer. until parents screamed :D zomg, will be going to china this tues... honestly, i dun feel like going. i love my com too much :D china. no hse. no com. see the link =xwont be able to blog then.... so i'll blog everyday frm now on till tues =)
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
2:26 PM
Saturday, June 11, 2005
happy day?
went Pooling again today.. monstercue rawkz :D hey petes, dun be so miserable la. u weren't totally rejected anyway... maybe u're just being too sensitive... dun brood over it too much yeahhs? =)
cousin went home today... T_T n i skipped rugby training. whatever.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
2:20 PM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
broke boy
Currently Listening To : Fuel - Falls On Me
You see me hanging round
starting to swear about this black hole of a dark field
and silently within hands touchin skin sharp
breaks my disease and i can breath
and all of your ways
all you dream
falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you breath
falls on me
it falls on me ahha
i feel like a pain
it draws me in again
squashes all my worst of me
darkness in my veins
I never could explain
and i wonder if you have ever seen
and still believe
and all of your ways
all you dream
falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you breath
falls on me
it falls on me
am I that strong
to carry on
have i changed your life
have i changed my world
could you save me ahhhhha
and all of your ways
all you dream
falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you breath
falls on me
it falls on me
and all of your ways
all you dream falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you breath
falls on me
it falls on me
ahhhhaha yea ahhhah yea
I'm gonna be really broke real soon... been going out like nobody's business these past few days. i think i've spent over $60 in 2 days =( been eating at yoshinoya heartland mall and bowling, got pwned. haha. 24 pts for the whole game :P dez today went to heartland mall again. peter, gd on u :D finally get to send her home... may u be together with her :D then went to KFC to study with the GOD, dez today, along with chien shen n michelle. although i didnt get much work done, but it was still productive :D i learnt how to do MI and APGP! :D damn... i'm starting to get quite irritated with my PW group. all asleep or something. in the end, i have to get everything done. =/
have rugby training tmr. sigh... gonna be real tired. and i still have to see Ho Lai Seng tmr... wad a bother.... =( =( =(
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
11:31 AM
Monday, June 06, 2005
SLEEPY.
Currently Listening to: Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About YouEvery time we lie awakeAfter every hit we takeEvery feeling that I getBut I haven’t missed you yetEvery roommate kept awakeBy every sigh and scream we makeAll the feelings that I getBut I still don't miss you yetOnly when I stop to think about itI hate everything about youWhy do I love youI hate everything about youWhy do I love youEvery time we lie awakeAfter every hit we takeEvery feeling that I getBut I haven’t missed you yetOnly when I stop to think about itI hate everything about youWhy do I love youI hate everything about youWhy do I love youOnly when I stop to thinkAbout you, I knowOnly when you stop to thinkAbout me, do you knowI hate everything about youWhy do I love youYou hate everything about meWhy do you love meI hateYou hateI hateYou love meI hate everything about youWhy do I love youDAMN SLEEPY DAY. listened to Kerpal 5 times today.. wahahhaa. really got nothing to do. talked to meiqi this morning, really nice to talk to an old fren =D she's gone to sentosa to break guiness world record, wish her luck!nothing uneventful happened to me today... Thankfully.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
1:06 PM
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Rugby Camp...
Currently Listening to : Pug Jelly - Come Home Soon
It's been two days and I'm missin' you already
Never really thought you could mean
So much in such a little time
Think about the nights when I'm lyin' in your bed
With my chest resting your head
Now that you're gone I'm here to stay
[Chorus]
I think I'm fallin' down, down down down
With a bad case of love, love love love
I think I'm falling for you, you you you
I think, I'm falling in love
When you come back all I wanna do is hold you
Have a blast even though there's nothing to do
Hold you close and look you in the eyes
So just come back and I'll tell you how I feel
Never knew how easy you could steal
My heart I miss you come home soon
[Chorus]
I think, I'm fallin' in love
I think, I'm fallin' in love
Cause I know that you won't be home when I call you
You're in England now, I hope that you'll be home soon
Cause I know that you won't be there when I call you, NOW
[Chorus]
I think, I'm fallin' in love
I think, I'm fallin' in love
Rugby camp was real tiring.... we had some stupid amazing race thingy against another 2 gal teams. came in 1st according to timing, but then there was no winner declared. =/ walked all the way from SRJC to Bukit Brown cemetery at 7.25, it was 10+ by the time we got there. it was kinda eerie, people were shining their torches on the trees on purpose. =x and they were making so much noise too... no respect for the dead. we had to separate red and green mung beans as the task.
rushed over to lower peirce reservoir as soon as we had done that. ALL BY WALKING. lotsa people has abrasions (chaffing) from walking. i think we walked about 30 kms altogether. we had a shuttle run at the reservoir. Rules: N people run, where N is the no. of people in the team. everyone must complete by 15N seconds. we completed in 3min 30s. then took a bus down to sembawang beach. and walked back to yishun interchange from there. reached the interchange at 4am. IM NOT SLEEPING AT AN INTERCHANGE AGAIN. we got back to sch at 6am. went to bathe n slp. never been so relieved to reach sch before. i was grumbling al the way from the beach till the interchange. had a good sleep till 11am, had a debriefing then lunch with the ruggers. i think it was really badly planned.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
9:55 AM
Friday, June 03, 2005
computer issues.
Now Listening to : C21 - She CriesIve been trying to believeIve been trying but its overShes been hoping forthat you will find your love againIm flying paperplanesWith all the letters she writesWhy dont you realize nowThat everytime you break itShe criesHavent been around to see herAll nightHavent been around to hold herI try but she criesHavent been around to tell herThat i try the best that i canWords dont change the way i feelDont deny it to be betterShes been close to meAnd i dont wanna lose a friendIve been looking for a wayTo say im sorryShes been waiting for youBut everytime your goneShe criesHavent been around to see herAll nightHavent been around to hold herI try but she criesHavent been around to tell herThat i try the best that i canYou dont wanna make it stopI think i have seen enoughThings have just been way to roughTired of the same old bluffI dont wanna make you cryI just wanna say goodbyeI dont need your seek and hideLiving on the same old lieShe criesHavent been around to see herAll nightHavent been around to hold herI try but she criesHavent been around to tell herThat i try the best that i can
wad a depressing day... no one to dota with. =/ when FINALLY someone who plays dota comes online, i went down to get a glass of water and guess wad? more shit. my sister was at the computer. =/ i asked her to use the laptop cos she was playing some stupid neopets game, which is easily available on any computer. however, my TFT does NOT install on the laptop. therefore, resulting in me having to use the PC.Me: could you kindly use my laptop instead?sister: but i prefer using the PC! (Liar. she has her own windows user acct on my laptop.)Me: it's just stupid neopets. and i was there first.sister: whatever. (turns away n continues playing her stupid neopets game)WTH!? i decided to return her the favour. when her friend called her hp n she stepped away, i intercepted the computer. when she came back....sister: HALU. *gives me a stupid face NER NER!!* -.-Me: Halu ur ass.if you wanna spite me by using the PC while i'm at it, i'll spite you too FUCKING BITCH.
(this portion has been edited so it doesnt look obscene.)haven't got the consent form signed... i'll run away from home if my parents dun sign the form. i hate this place. i WANT OUT.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
10:54 AM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
willthisturngood=(
wanted to go to school n take the consent form but my mother told me to ask Mr Tan to fax it over. i still went to school anyways, since i promised chien shen that i'd bring a copy over to his place. the day was totally detroyed by my mother's screams over the phone.
*phone ring*
Me: err... hello?
Mother: DIDNT I TELL YOU TO GET YOUR TEACHER TO FAX IT OVER?
Me:................................
Mother : *SLAMS PHONE DOWN REALLY HARD*
Me: &$%*$^%^$@(^!!!
WTF? it's my fault i didnt get the consent form. i skipped rugby training. which means i have to be responsibel n go get it myself. y trouble Mr Tan over such matters?
and i cant work during the holidays. =/ dad asked me to go to china with him on the 15th of june. i'm gonna be broke nxt term =( seriously, $40 a week's worth of allowance aint even enough.
I CANT WORK!!!!! =(
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
3:24 AM
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
Currently Listening to: Backstreet Boys - Incomplete
Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me
I cant find no rest
Where Im going is anybody’s guess
Ive tried to go on like I never knew you
Im awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all Im going to be is incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
Its written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake
Ive tried to go on like I never knew you
Im awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all Im going to be is incomplete
I dont mean to drag it on
but I cant seem to let you go
I dont wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)
Ive tried to go on like I never knew you
Im awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all Im going to be is incomplete
Incomplete....
lectures were boring. dammit i got caught for talking by Esther 'Cyclops' Cheng. =/ had a maths test. i'm gonna fail that. Mr Ang actually cried while he was teaching cos the students were talking so much. i feel bad =( cos i was talking the most. i think. Mr Ang's actually quite nice, but i'm just not interested in istening to lectures after 3 hours of looking at Cyclops. ponned rugby training too cos it rained and the field was muddy. went to heartland mall with Clarice, Chien Shen n Zheng ² instead. i got a badge! it says: 'i love my attitude problem' :D we were actually supposed to go bowling after lunch, but den later at superbowl...
Marist Primary Sch kids: STRIKE!
Marist Primary Sch kids: AGAIN!
Marist Primary Sch kids: AND AGAIN!!
that got me scared. trashed the idea of bowling and went to Plaza Sing instead for pool. but we didnt get to play pool too, cos the gals wanted to shop =) got home and played dota till 11.45pm, it was a miracle my parents didnt say anything! got owned like crazy... 22 deaths =/ another owning like that, n i swear i shall quit dota-ing forever :D stupid wireless connection's acting up. better go. still have to collect the consent form for friday's rugby camp frm Mr Edwin Tan tmr.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
3:45 PM
MORE SHIT
ARGH. WHY CANT THEY UNDERSTAND. NO MOOD LE LA. I'M NOT THAT STUPID SMALL KID ANYMORE.
Dad: i'll lock up the computer if you don't control your gaming.
Me: *WTH?!?! i'm doing research*
ok... so what has gaming got to do with research?!?!? ARGH. nobody gives me a chance to explain anything. whatever.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
12:24 PM
STILL a shitty day...
Currently Listening to: Papa Roach - Scars
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is
[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
[Chorus]
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
This day started out well... until after physics lecture. =/ had to go see Ho Lai Seng right after a nice prata lunch with Peter, Zheng², Hua Lei, Winnie, Yuen Loong etc etc... today for my group's dumb GPP. he started bitching abt it rite after tern wen n i got into his lair of child porn.
Hohoho: this GPP blah blah blah....
me: zzzzzzzzz... *rolls eyes*
yeah, something like that. thought a day of dotA would cure everything, but i got more shit after my parents came home from work.
Dad: Playing computer again! why dont you go study or something!
me: zzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... *starts to get a little pissed off*
and more...
Mother: STOP PLAYING COMPUTER N COME DOWN TO HAVE DINNER!
me: zzzzzzzzzz..... (last 5 mins. game almost over)
and worst was yet to come... i got tag teamed by my cousin n mother right after dinner!
Cousin: did you activate the DMZ for the router?
me: yes. (activated to host a lancraft game)
Cousin: did you know that it deactivates the firewall?
me: err... no. (i'm a router idiot)
Cousin: it makes the computer prone to viruses =/
mother: nvm if SOMEONE can fix it. *stares at me coldly*
me: *shrugs helplessly n retreats into room*
what a day. i hope something nice happens. like maybe Osama Bin Laden targetting my house, but i'm hoping for too much. 0.0
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
11:44 AM