Monday, March 31, 2008
I find that most of my blog posts have been people-oriented of late.
Let's try something else, shall we? :) This time, it shall be something... Thought-provoking. I hope.
Has anybody even sat down, for a minute, to think, like, seriously think, of their future? A projection of what they'd be doing, 5 years from now, when they've graduated, what would they be working as? Would they have already started their own family? Probably, those would be the standard questions one asks themselves, when they think of their future, but those are trivial matters.
Last night, as I lay on the cold, hard floor, waiting for sleep to overcome me, I thought of the future. Not abstract, deep thought. Just... Simple. I was just thinking... If i'd still be the same person I am, 5-10 years from now. Would definitions of my inner world, stay the same? Would I still be so simple-minded, like I am, now? Would I still be 'nice'?
Much as I hate to admit it, i've come to realise, that my inner world, almost mirrors that of a child's. My inner world... I was too full of insecurities... To want to grow up. I led a life which was too comfortable to promote growth. I was... Simple-minded... In that sense.
I always felt that there wasn't any compelling reason for me to not be nice to anybody. There could be other reasons why i'm nice to people, but currently i'm still in the midst of soul-searching. Lol. The most convincing answer I thought of so far, would be that, perhaps, just perhaps, I wished somebody would be just as nice to me, too. It, however, isn't the best answer, because, it would just mean that i'm being nice for selfish reasons. So, it is an invalid answer, as of now.
It's been a long time, I hope everybody's alright.
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
5:52 AM
