Tuesday, November 04, 2008
ORD LO~~~ Oh wait. ORD?!
In the blink of an eye, 22 months have passed. My NS liabilities are over. It's back to civilian life. You know they always say that the grass is always greener on the other side, well, it is true. Lol. I spent my whole NS life counting down, looking forward to my ORD date... But somehow it doesn't feel the way i thought it'd feel. I guess that's just me, being human.
Being Human. Greedy, foolish, insatiable creatures. Hah. What a disgrace to live life as a human, forever carrying that sign, the mark, of condemnation. So bad, even breathing feels like... My lungs are burning up, my vision's just a whirl of colours. Humans should just go extinct. Anyway moving on...
Suddenly it feels like time has become a bullet train i'm riding in, racing toward a head-on collision course with the unknown. So fast, it's... Scary. I don't know what to do with my life now. Lol. Sorta like a mid-life crisis, don't you think?
You might think i'm hostile now, but all i'm doing is protecting myself, protecting my psychological well-being, protecting my heart. Just like you did. Exactly just like it, too, don't you think? The way you treated me so harshly. That snide tone of your voice. We're so mirror images of each other, don't you think. Even the way we react to stuff. I hated the way you handled us, and yet, i'm doing the same thing. Hah. Why do I even bother. It doesn't matter, not anymore. Just a flitting shadow from my past.
On a lighter note, school's resuming on 12 Jan 09 for me. Lol. the cool's been put back into school :D I wish for student exchange programs!!
EDIT: decided to just upload all photos im gonna blog about, to flickr. Can be found under navigations 'Les.' :) Ty!
Thy Sins be Cleansed.
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